April is quickly closing in. April means National Poetry Writing Month (NaPoWriMo) and, once again, Camp NaNoWriMo. I have decided to participate in both. This could be a profoundly bad idea as I have yet to find a balance between taking care of T & myself and writing time.
I sort of feel like a glutton for punishment. At the same time, it seems like a rebellion. I am not coping well with all the changes to my life. While I do not miss my burden of a home, I do miss my life immensely. My decision to participate in these writing challenges seems like a way to cling to what tiny fragile threads may still exist of my identity as a full-time writer. I remain against giving into the full-time nanny/housekeeper/cook identity which has become a driving force in the day to day.
My saving grace with April is the fact that I will be ‘off-duty’ from the 2nd until the 13th. I hope to get a lot of work done during those days. It is the rest of the days I have concern over. After all, NaPoWriMo is a poem a day challenge. There is a high likelihood of getting 25,000 words (my Camp NaNo goal) during those off-duty days which will be nice but knowing me, if that happens, I will just increase my word count goal. I do intend to read during my off-duty time too because some of my favorite authors have books coming out March 25th through April 1st…evil, evil, evil…
I remain hopeful, however, about putting a lot down toward the four poetry books in progress. As of this posting, Zephyr & Zinc has 64 poems, Xenium & Xyris has 54, Nightmares & Nevermore has 44, and Elysian & Ether has 30. There is a strong possibility of completing Zephyr & Zinc and Xenium & Xyris during April if I buckle down and focus.