Eve of NaNoWriMo 2014

NaNo-Participant-2014It is time for National Novel Writing Month once more. November is gearing up to be great with a lot of write-ins – one every day! Never have I been so excited for write-ins before.

In preparation of this year, I went through the first draft of Reaper’s Moon and pulled all the ‘weak’ areas so I can rework them. Determined to get a solidly finished draft done for Reaper’s Moon. I plan to also complete Elysian & Ether and Nightmares & Nevermore so I can get started on Passion & Prudence. If time/creative energy allows, there are several other novels in progress that would like my attention & affection.

This past year has been really tough on my creative process. I hope NaNoWriMo will help give me that ‘kick in the ass’ I need to get writing done.

There will be no Free Kindle download or Poetry Wednesday for the month of November. Those features will return in December along with the release of Russian Hymns. The Kindle version of Russian Hymns is available for pre-order.

Pre-NaNoWriMo Stats

Reaper’s Moon: One half is done, one half to rework/rewrite {sad panda face}
Elysian & Ether: 63/100
Nightmares & Nevermore: 65/100
Passion & Prudence: 0/100

NaNoWriMo 2014 will bring a major change to my day-to-day as part of reclaiming my creativity through health. Oh, I’ve had a lot of starts and stops in regards to becoming healthier. Unfortunately, things have gotten to the point where I am nearly crippled from pain. Back in October, I gave up wheat and sugar for a few days before caving in to my addictions. This ‘caving’ has made the pain even worse. Clearly, wheat and sugar are definitely not for me but I am horribly addicted. November 1st is the start of a program that claims it can kick such an addiction. It has a 3 day jump start where I eat every 2 hours in order to balance blood sugar and reduce cravings. I plan to do this jump start for 5 days to err on the side of caution. I really do not want to fail again. I am really sick and tired of being pained and tired all the time. I’m into this change-for-the-better with a lot of planning. I have 80% of my meals for November planned out. I’m happy there is a write-in nearly every day to avoid the toxic influences lurking around my mom and her house. I spent yesterday and today making grain-free snacks and prepping (travel friendly) meals for the next few days. After the 5 day jump start, I start alkalizing supplements and re-introduce exercise.

I am certain my NaNoWriMo 2014 blog posts will contain a bit about this change to help hold me accountable.

On the note of addiction and toxicity, there will be no spending in November beyond groceries, gas for Luna (my car), and a set amount for a caffeine-free sugar-free beverage at coffee shops ($2 max per coffee shop visit). Living with a hoarder has been heavily coloring my spending habits lately and it isn’t for the better. I had worked so hard to declutter and simplify yet it seems for nothing right now.

Yes, NaNoWriMo 2014 is for reviving my lagging creative process but it also serves as a distraction to, I hope, keep me from paying attention to the screams of dying addictions.

Prepping for NaNoWriMo 2014

In the spirit of NaNoWriMo preparations, I dug out the still unfinished manuscript I had worked on during NaNoWriMos 2010 & 2011. I read through it at last night’s write-in with my local writing group. A lot of re-writing needs to happen if I decide to move forward with it as a novel. There is a clear distinction of what was written first and what was written much later. The later items are well-written and beautiful. The rest needs a ton of help.

Unfortunately, the bulk of the main story line was written first so I’m perplexed over what to do with it now. Not sure the main story line can be salvaged to turn it into what I want it to be. This was the first project where I attempted structure poetry. It was foreign, distant being when I began. I got more and more comfortable as time went on.

Still, I’ve predominately just done traditional poetry for the past two years so I’m not sure I’ll be able to do justice to “structured” poetry. Nevertheless, I am going to try and do something with Reaper’s Moon during NaNoWriMo 2014 if I can keep my manic nature in check.

Although it seems strange, I am glad that I ended up leaving Reaper’s Moon alone for awhile. It makes the errors and the successes easier to recognize.

NaNoWriMo 2014 should also mark the completion of Elysian & Ether and Nightmares & Nevermore as well as the start of Passion & Prudence.

New Poetry Wednesday: Haunted Two

Haunted Two

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Make up this lonely love
Cast out to denim seas
I sleep and grow in groan
Cannot stand to sleep alone
Stalked by strangers in these
Two haunted dreams
Make up this lonely love
Conjure more than denim seas
Between horror shows lower
Than the driving force of sleep
Too alone for rest against these
Two haunted dreams
Make up this lovely love
Gaunt and drawn by denim seas

New Poetry Wednesday: Record

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Turn the record on
Could not deny the change
A song no longer enjoyed
When I got lost
By the wayside
As you walked away
Record played on
Song in endless loop
Wish to scratch it out
Release ourselves from
Notes held across us
Turn the record on
Could not deny the change
A song no longer enjoyed
When I got lost
As you walked away

New Poetry Wednesday: Walls

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Curl up inside
These pieces of paper
Pray they will protect
Against the raging storm
Until it is safe
Within four walls
Long absent or tainted
Curl up inside
These pieces of paper
My hasty prayers
Decorating their water stains
Urge them to hold me
Safe and sound until
I once more have four
Walls to surround
All my own untainted
Solid and reassuring
Curl up inside
These pieces of paper
Pray they will protect
Against the raging storm
Until it is safe

New Poetry Wednesday: Furniture

Furniture

Battlefields come in fire
Drawn the wrong lines
As I lay in huddle
Hope to be nothing more
Than furniture dust
When fires settle
Between incorrect lines
Clouded by smoke
Battlefields come in fire
Burning high and fast
Warning signs all along
Drawn the wrong lines
As I lay in huddle
Regretful that I may
Have pieces to recollect
When I am furniture
Reduced to thrown ash
When fires settle
Shortly and for I pray
Day clears of smoke
So I may fix my lines
Battlefields come in fire
Staring too deep inside
Sharp against my form
Drawn the wrong lines
As I lay in huddle
Hope to be nothing more
Than furniture dust
When fires settle
By clouded horrid advice
I refused to hear
A thousand times between
The wrong lines as I lay
In smoky huddle

New Poetry Wednesday: Buried Under

Buried Under

Apparitions may come and go
Cannot stand when awake
For I am buried under
Someone else’s dirt
Stagnant in this earth
Wishing for wings
Pull me up from this
Unintentional grave
For I am buried under
Someone else’s dirt
When all is said and done
Apparitions may come and go
Cannot stand when awake
For I am buried under
Someone else’s dirt